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What I'm planning on writing about in this journal is old news to most of my close friends, but seeing as I haven't updated in a while, I thought I would write about the things that happened to me recently that have (and I'm extremely grateful for it) gotten much better as they went along.
Long story short: I came out to my parents as a trans woman.
The long story, for those curious, is as follows.
I knew it was bound to happen at some point, but my mom ended up finding the second Facebook account that I had been using for some time. I’ve never been able to lie to my mother, so I told her the truth about everything.
Initially, she was furious, didn’t fully understand things, and said some things that hit me extremely hard. But, I honestly think everything she said can be forgiven, because I, as she said, “dropped a bombshell on her and dad.” The only thing dad seemed to be mad about what that I was “using a different name than the one he gave me,” and I can honestly see where he was coming from with that. After I deleted the Facebook account, dad was fine.
I talked to my mom about things over and over the next few days, until it got to the point where I needed to vent. I initially felt bad about how I went about it, but I had to tell my mother how I was feeling. The short version was that I’m not ashamed of who I am, but I was extremely upset that I’m a disappointment to them, because that is the one thing I never wanted to be to them. Mom reassured me that wasn’t the case. In the end, I told her that regardless of how my life goes in the near future, I wanted my old family back.
Since that point, things have been better. We’re the family we were before. I know that mom, and possibly dad, haven’t completely turned around yet, but in general the two of them are acting like the fantastic parents I’ve always known, and I couldn’t be more grateful. From this point on, the one thing I want is for that to continue unhindered, because I’ve felt better than I have in a long time.
That’s the end of that story.
As for anything else…
Finals week of college starts Monday. Directly after the Thanksgiving break, too. No student on campus is going to be prepared for what’s coming. But I’m trying my best. I’m only concerned about two finals, one of which I absolutely have to pass in order to keep going with my major classes. And thankfully, the two finals I just mentioned are the only ones that are comprehensive.
Super Mario 3D World and Zelda: A Link Between Worlds are both amazing games, and each are up near the top, in my opinion, of the list of best games in their respective series. I may end up writing more about them somewhere at some point. Speaking of games, I’m on the fence about whether to go towards the Xbox One or the PS4 next. I’ve heard things, good and bad, on both sides that are making it difficult to make a decision. Regardless of the decision, if the prices are indicative of anything it’s that I definitely won’t be buying a new console anytime soon. The games I’m waiting for next aren’t even coming out for either new console, strangely enough.
Besides, Wii U is the best of the three. I think so, anyway.
That’s about all there is to say for now. I’m going to charge headstrong into finals with everything I have and hope for the best. I don’t think I’ll do perfectly, but I’ll most certainly do the best I can.